"Confidence comes not from always being
right but from not fearing to be wrong." ~Peter T.
Mcintyre
"Our doubts are traitors, and make us lose
the good we oft might win, by fearing to attempt." ~William
Shakespeare, Measure for Measure, 1604
"Once you become self-conscious, there is
no end to it; once you start to doubt, there is no room for
anything else." ~Mignon McLaughlin, The Neurotic's Notebook,
1960
I recently found myself feeling the need to resurrect this old post, namely because it was one of my more popular posts and, even several years later, it still rings true. Writers often deal with crippling self-doubt, whether from a biting review or lack of confidence. Most of the time, the feeling is fleeting, and we're able to shake it off. But sometimes, it's not, and I hope this post will serve as a catalyst to help pull anyone finding themselves creatively disabled out of the self-doubt rut.
Self-doubt: the bane of any
writer's existence. It's the dark cloud looming on the horizon,
threatening to rain down self-loathing, inferiority and regret. In short,
it's the one thing that can end a writer's career before it even has a chance
to take flight. With its uncanny knack for stifling one's creativity,
self-doubt renders its sufferer an empty shell.
I don't believe there has ever been an
author who--at one point in time--has never suffered from a minuscule amount of
self-doubt. Recently, I've had my own bouts with this affliction and the
symptomotology has been enough to render me virtually useless. In going
through my manuscript and some of my former blogs, I've noticed glaring typos
and grammatical errors--I should, at times, be locked away for comma abuse--as
well other cringe-inducing faux pas. As my blogs are being
shared and re-tweeted (of which I'm extremely appreciative of), I often find
myself critiquing the hell out of what has been passed around and fear I
may not be living up to the high standards I try to set for
myself. This stems partly from sheer fear; fear of
being rejected by those in the community I'm striving to gain acceptance
in. The other part is being exposed to those who write so flawlessly and
so seemingly effortlessly that I often wonder if they have the same fears and
self-doubts that I do. The answer to that is, I'm certain, a resounding
YES.
The question is how do you prevent it
from consuming you and your writing? I believe the answer to that
is through lots of practice, support and self-motivation. Now let's
analyze some techniques, shall we? (Too bad, we're going to anyway...)
Find
a writing partner--A writing
partner or support group of fellow writers is invaluable to any word-
crafter. It's imperative to receive both good and bad feedback
(constructive criticism) and to have mini cheerleaders, motivational
speakers and drill sergeants by your side at a moment’s notice to both
encourage your pursuits, celebrate your victories, tell you what works and what
doesn't, and most importantly, to prevent the storm clouds from rolling
in. Before I started involving myself in social networks, I had a small group
comprised of family, friends and co-workers who would read my work and provide
me with the encouragement I needed when I wanted to chuck my laptop
across the room (because a bad writing day is all that blasted computer's
fault, don't cha' know). After I joined social networking sites for
writers (or ones that just harbor a substantial writing community such as
Twitter, Blogger, Absolute Write, Query Tracker, Tumblr, Facebook, Goodreads,
etc.), I felt as though I'd arrived home. These communities offer a
seemingly unlimited amount of talented aspiring authors and published authors,
alike willing to dispense a plethora of advice and support.
After all, we're all in the same boat so why not travel together?
Quit
standing in your own way--I know
there are famous quotes out there that roughly state something about being
your own worst enemy and creating the barriers that block your own path to
success. Well, they're all completely true. The human mind is a
beautiful oddity with the ability to both propel a person into greatness or
cast them aside in the gutter at the slightest twist in thought. However, it's
when one allows those negative twists in thought to consume them that the
problems really begin to erupt, and minor problems such as grammatical errors
and the writer's own fickleness in wording forces them to question their
abilities. It's one thing to be critical of your work with the intent to
make it the best it can be, it's a completely different story to beat yourself
up over a misplaced comma. Have faith in yourself, your errors aren't as
glaring as you believe them to be. And when you feel like giving up, take
a walk, watch a movie, or do the moonwalk to take your mind away from the
negativity. You'll be pleasantly surprised by how much a break and a set of
fresh eyes will vastly improve your disposition.
Not
everything you write is going to be bestseller--Wouldn't that be great, though? You, sitting at
home and typing away, knowing there are a whole slew of famished
individuals out there ready to feed upon your every word. Alas, for most
of us it's time to wake up from this dream, for we know it takes
work--lots and lots of agonizing, frustrating work--before we even see a tenth
of that kind of success. That is, if we ever see any success at
all. To be a writer, you must remove the stars from your eyes and humble
yourself with the sobering truth that writing isn't going to make you rich and
famous. With that truth, thankfully, also comes the equally
as truthful statement that that's pretty much the norm for most
writers and it isn't because your work isn't up to snuff that you aren't
a multi-millionaire. Write because you love it; because it
makes you happy. Don't write because you believe it to be your meal
ticket or that success equals validation of your abilities.
Comparing
apples to elephants--The worst
thing you can do as a writer is to compare your work to that of others because,
unless they're absolutely terrible or you have a slightly inflated ego, you're
probably going to surmise their work as being on a level much higher than
yours. I'm insanely guilty of this. Whether it be friends, fellow
bloggers, writers, or published novels, I'm constantly critiquing my work
against that of others. Where does this get me? A night without a
single word written, a woe-is-me state of mind and a chocolate massacre on my
hands (and face, and probably somewhere in my hair, as well). Your novel
is yours and no one else's. Your writing style is unique to you. How you
write and what you write is a mark of your true identity, setting you apart
from the rest of the pack. To compare your work to the work of another is
like trying to compare your DNA with theirs. In the end,
the strands will never match and to tinker with one to make it
comport with the other will only result in a contrived, mutated
product. Different is good; variety is the spice of life; Pepsi is way
better than Coke...oops wrong blog. The point is, your style is unique,
special, something to be proud of and chances are the person you're
relentlessly comparing yourself to thinks the same way about their work when
compared to yours.
You possess the same tools as the
next person-The beauty with fiction writing is there isn't a single person out
there who is more qualified or who possesses a clear advantage over you (unless
they're a celebrity, but that's a topic for another day). We all come
equipped with a brain comprised of creative, technical threads, enabling us
to put sentences together to create characters and worlds beyond the scope
of reality. Although some naturally have more than
others, all of us come off the biologic assembly line with drive
and determination ingrained deep within our souls. Our collective brains,
drive and determination, though differentiated by thoughts, execution
and persistence are the tools every writer needs to succeed.
It's how one chooses to use them and how one lets their self-doubt affect their
potency that makes all the difference in the world.
Great expectations--If you're like me, you tend to set
the bar at the peak of the mountain. Some days you're able to clear
it so effortlessly you think your writing will ascend into orbit. Other
days, you're barely able to hurdle over a blade of grass and you feel your
writing is on par with that of your toddler's (my daughter can blow me out to
water most days with her creativity). At the risk of ripping
off Charles Dickens, setting great expectations for yourself is both
healthy and necessary if you plan on succeeding at anything you set out to do
in life. Yet those same expectations--if left to run rampant--can also be your
undoing. Don't make your great expectations impossible ones.
Instead of trying to clear hurdles in the sky, concentrate on those down here
on Earth first. Not to be cliché, but Rome wasn't built in a day.
Like your literary dreams, it takes time for empires to emerge.
Creativity is key--For a writer, creativity is second
nature. Telling a writer to be creative is like telling a kid to play at
Chuck-E-Cheese; it's just going to happen. When you write and you get
stuck on the way your dialogue, sentence structure, narrative, or overall
thought process is panning out, don't think to yourself, well, I'm
not going to be the next Sara Gruen, keep writing. Allow your
creativity to flow until you've either worked out your problems or completely
replaced them with new, even better ideas. Perhaps open a different
document to draft alternative scenarios or move on to a completely different
chapter in your book and come back to the section that's plaguing you when you
feel you're better able to tackle it. After all, the world doesn't
need another Sara Gruen, it needs to be introduced to you.
Be positive--I know it's hard to do every
day and I'm not saying that it's not healthy to have a good cry from time to
time to clear your head. It's just that, after you dry those tears and
finally leave the pillow you were beating the hell out of alone, you need to
move on. Don't dwell on your problems and frustrations. Fix them.
Even the longest, darkest tunnel ends eventually, and so will the sudden
resurgence of negativity encapsulating you. This is where the writing
group mentioned earlier comes particularly in handy. If you're stuck on a
plot point or a grammatical dilemma, they may be able to
supply you with the ideas and information needed to fix said dilemmas and
reign in your self-doubt before it breaks you.
A
final tool I've found particularly
helpful when I'm in a slump is to read positive remarks I've received on
past projects. Those kind comments and helpful suggestions have a way of
rejuvenating me like emotional coffee, giving me the drive to carry on and the
ability to leave those negative thoughts in the dust.